“You’re embarrassed to say the prayer out loud because you have been a monk for so many years? In other words you think that you will appear to others to be at a lower spiritual level by saying it out loud since that is what beginners do? And you’re trying to pass yourself off as an advanced veteran? Shame on you! You have nothing but vainglory and pride. What is truly embarrassing is when we do not say they prayer when our mind wanders here and there and when our mouth doesn’t stop babbling. Isn’t that shameful? Yes that is shameful in the eyes of both God and man.”
Elder Joseph
~My Elder Joseph